I just came to the realisation that when I go to the gym after work, it will be the 7th time out of the last 8 days that I have been. And the only reason I missed 1 day was because I had a family dinner to go to, otherwise it would have been 8 straight! I don't think I have been this committed with my exercise since the very start of my WW journey. I have done 3 spin classes (with another to come tonight), 2 pump classes, a weights session, and a heap of cardio on the machines. Since I go straight after work and get to the gym about 5, and my classes don't start until 6 or 6:15, I get in a good 45 minutes of cardio beforehand as well, so by the time I leave, my heart rate monitor tells me I've burned in the vicinity of 1000 calories. Seriously, this hard work had better pay off when I weigh in on Wednesday!!!
I had a bit of a delusional moment on Saturday night. Hubby and I went to see Valentines Day (not because we celebrate it, we had cheap tickets!) and I decided that I'd like to end up with a body like Jessica Biel's.........what the hell was I thinking?!?! And the crazy thing is, that my lovely, equally deluded (but very supportive husband!) thinks that I could actually achieve it! So that's my goal now. Maybe not to end up looking exactly like her, but to try my hardest to get as close as I humanly possibly can. She's one of few actresses these days, who while she is very slim, is still very athletic and quite muscular, and no matter what I do, I will always have a muscular build so I may as well aim high huh??? Good thing I plan on spending the next 10 days straight at the gym I would say!
15 February 2010
10 February 2010
Bugger
Well after having a great first week back to WW where I lost 1.5kg, the following week wasn't so successful and I literally gained all of it back for no explicable reason. I tracked every day, I exercised, I have no idea what happened. But today I lost 0.7kg, that's at least something.
I think I have really had a change in attitude over the last 2 days. I've realised that for me, my WW journey was never really a psychological one. The reason I gained weight wasn't that I comfort ate, or anything like that. I simply like really good food and wine. So from now on the rest of my journey will be purely a physical one. No more whinging that I don't want to go to the gym. No more telling myself that I deserve a piece (or block!) of chocolate because I've been soooo good. No more giving up on the treadmill, or spin bike, or pump class, because it hurts, or because I'm tired. Every time I feel that, or think that, I'm going to yell at myself to just bloody well keep going! I'm going to tell myself that I'm still overweight, I still have a long way to go, and just to get on with it!!! I'm angry but in a good way if that makes sense. It's an anger I can use to my benefit every time I feel defeated in some way. The next series of WW at work runs for 20 weeks, and I have just over 17kg to go. I would love to think I could get rid of that before the end of this series, but even if I can't, as long as I did literally everything I could do, I'll be satisfied.
So back to the gym tonight (for the 3rd time this week - not bad considering it's Wednesday!) for another spin class. If it gets tough, I'll keep going. If my legs hurt, I'll keep going. I am sick and tired of being in limbo land with my weight, and I refuse to do it any longer! God, I sound like I'm about to break out into 'I am woman, hear me roar'!! But if that's what it takes, no matter how stupid I look, maybe I'll just do it!!!
I think I have really had a change in attitude over the last 2 days. I've realised that for me, my WW journey was never really a psychological one. The reason I gained weight wasn't that I comfort ate, or anything like that. I simply like really good food and wine. So from now on the rest of my journey will be purely a physical one. No more whinging that I don't want to go to the gym. No more telling myself that I deserve a piece (or block!) of chocolate because I've been soooo good. No more giving up on the treadmill, or spin bike, or pump class, because it hurts, or because I'm tired. Every time I feel that, or think that, I'm going to yell at myself to just bloody well keep going! I'm going to tell myself that I'm still overweight, I still have a long way to go, and just to get on with it!!! I'm angry but in a good way if that makes sense. It's an anger I can use to my benefit every time I feel defeated in some way. The next series of WW at work runs for 20 weeks, and I have just over 17kg to go. I would love to think I could get rid of that before the end of this series, but even if I can't, as long as I did literally everything I could do, I'll be satisfied.
So back to the gym tonight (for the 3rd time this week - not bad considering it's Wednesday!) for another spin class. If it gets tough, I'll keep going. If my legs hurt, I'll keep going. I am sick and tired of being in limbo land with my weight, and I refuse to do it any longer! God, I sound like I'm about to break out into 'I am woman, hear me roar'!! But if that's what it takes, no matter how stupid I look, maybe I'll just do it!!!
09 February 2010
I'm baaaaaaaack!!!!
Ok, so it's been way too long since I wrote on this blog. A lot of time has passed, and a lot of stuff has happened. So I guess I'll start at the beginning of all of it.
I got to within 9kg of being at goal, and then things went haywire. I plateaued BIG TIME. Nothing budged for months. After months of frustration, all of a sudden I wasn't being overly careful of what I ate. I was still exercising like a mad woman, even competing in a few fun runs, including the 9km Bridge Run. I wasn't bingeing, I wasn't being ridiculous with what I ate, but a couple of kilos managed to find their way back to me. I tried to reign them in, but again nothing budged. Then my hubby and I went to Europe for 6 weeks in December/January on a much waited for and anticipated trip. Europe was the coldest it's been in December for quite some time so needless to say salads weren't on the menu! I ate and ate and ate....French cheeses and pastries, German sausages and beer, British fish and chips, you name it we ate it. We did a river cruise for a week and they may as well have strapped a feed bag onto us, I even ate 3 desserts one day!!! We walked everywhere, sometimes 30,000 steps a day but it wasn't enough to keep a few more kilos at bay, and I was prepared for that.
So on my return to work, I started to get serious again. Back to the gym, back to eating well (which I was more than ready to do after eating stodgy food for 6 weeks!) and back to getting my attitude back in the right frame of mind. I had done all these things until a routine doctors visit nearly 2 weeks ago put me in a spin. I was sent for an ultrasound and discovered that I may have polycystic ovarian syndrome. The only good thing to come out of it is that I may have learned why it's been so hard for me to lose more weight over the last year, but it has really hit me for 6. But I haven't let it throw me off course. I am still at the gym, probably going harder at it than I have for quite some time. I'm still eating really well, and am actually following the WW menus which is something I've never done, and finding it really easy. I have to see a specialist in a couple of weeks to determine exactly what the problem is and how to fix it, but I certainly have an added incentive to stay on track now, knowing that I potentially could have this problem. Even if it isn't POCS, I still have cysts there meaning it may be harder for me to have kids, and knowing that weight is a factor in that gives me extra motivation.
So I'm back here, knowing that penning (or typing as the case may be) my thoughts is one of the best ways I keep myself on track and going in the right direction. I have just over 17kg to go to get to goal, and this time I'm bloody well determined to do it!
I got to within 9kg of being at goal, and then things went haywire. I plateaued BIG TIME. Nothing budged for months. After months of frustration, all of a sudden I wasn't being overly careful of what I ate. I was still exercising like a mad woman, even competing in a few fun runs, including the 9km Bridge Run. I wasn't bingeing, I wasn't being ridiculous with what I ate, but a couple of kilos managed to find their way back to me. I tried to reign them in, but again nothing budged. Then my hubby and I went to Europe for 6 weeks in December/January on a much waited for and anticipated trip. Europe was the coldest it's been in December for quite some time so needless to say salads weren't on the menu! I ate and ate and ate....French cheeses and pastries, German sausages and beer, British fish and chips, you name it we ate it. We did a river cruise for a week and they may as well have strapped a feed bag onto us, I even ate 3 desserts one day!!! We walked everywhere, sometimes 30,000 steps a day but it wasn't enough to keep a few more kilos at bay, and I was prepared for that.
So on my return to work, I started to get serious again. Back to the gym, back to eating well (which I was more than ready to do after eating stodgy food for 6 weeks!) and back to getting my attitude back in the right frame of mind. I had done all these things until a routine doctors visit nearly 2 weeks ago put me in a spin. I was sent for an ultrasound and discovered that I may have polycystic ovarian syndrome. The only good thing to come out of it is that I may have learned why it's been so hard for me to lose more weight over the last year, but it has really hit me for 6. But I haven't let it throw me off course. I am still at the gym, probably going harder at it than I have for quite some time. I'm still eating really well, and am actually following the WW menus which is something I've never done, and finding it really easy. I have to see a specialist in a couple of weeks to determine exactly what the problem is and how to fix it, but I certainly have an added incentive to stay on track now, knowing that I potentially could have this problem. Even if it isn't POCS, I still have cysts there meaning it may be harder for me to have kids, and knowing that weight is a factor in that gives me extra motivation.
So I'm back here, knowing that penning (or typing as the case may be) my thoughts is one of the best ways I keep myself on track and going in the right direction. I have just over 17kg to go to get to goal, and this time I'm bloody well determined to do it!
04 March 2009
Quick update!
Ok, I know I've been a slack arse with keeping this thing up to date lately, but I've just been so busy both at work and home that I seriously haven't had the time!
So just a very quick update to report that I FINALLY had a decent loss! I lost 0.7kg this week which is the biggest loss I've had for months. I am now at the lightest I have been since my WW journey started (even if it is only by 200g!) and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel again. I now have under 10kg to go to get to my goal...I can't believe it. Under 10kg!!!
So here's to....well, here's to me actually! For sticking with this even when things were sucking big time. I kept going and I feel like I'm starting to reap the rewards again.
So just a very quick update to report that I FINALLY had a decent loss! I lost 0.7kg this week which is the biggest loss I've had for months. I am now at the lightest I have been since my WW journey started (even if it is only by 200g!) and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel again. I now have under 10kg to go to get to my goal...I can't believe it. Under 10kg!!!
So here's to....well, here's to me actually! For sticking with this even when things were sucking big time. I kept going and I feel like I'm starting to reap the rewards again.
23 February 2009
Struggling...
Well it seems I haven't quite managed to see off this bloody plateau!! I gained 500g last week, for absolutely no reason at all. My body just can't quite seem to get back into the habit of losing weight, not either maintaining or putting it on.
I am really struggling emotionally with this at the moment. I have not, and will not give up, but it just seems that all I'm doing is going through the motions with no real results. I guess all I can do is keep going and hope in time it just simply happens for me again. I have no choice I suppose!!
This week I have been less than angelic - I think it was a bit of a rebellion against what's been happening. I haven't been too bad, but I did go to the races on Saturday and drank and ate pretty much anything I wanted! I did feel a bit guilty on Sunday, but I think it was a good thing as I woke up today determine to refocus and seriously get my shit together. Yes, I know I haven't been falling off the wagon often or anything like that, but I've decided that I'm not going to mope, I'm not going to find excuses not to go to the gym (even though I generally still go, I do whinge about it at times!), I'm going to get serious. I have just over 10kg to go and I want them bloody well gone!!!
Sorry for the rant, just feeling a bit out of control at the moment and that's one thing I really hate. I am a bit of a control freak, and the slightest sign that things aren't going how I want them tends to freak me out a bit. But no more!!! I'm getting my act together, and getting the job done!
I am really struggling emotionally with this at the moment. I have not, and will not give up, but it just seems that all I'm doing is going through the motions with no real results. I guess all I can do is keep going and hope in time it just simply happens for me again. I have no choice I suppose!!
This week I have been less than angelic - I think it was a bit of a rebellion against what's been happening. I haven't been too bad, but I did go to the races on Saturday and drank and ate pretty much anything I wanted! I did feel a bit guilty on Sunday, but I think it was a good thing as I woke up today determine to refocus and seriously get my shit together. Yes, I know I haven't been falling off the wagon often or anything like that, but I've decided that I'm not going to mope, I'm not going to find excuses not to go to the gym (even though I generally still go, I do whinge about it at times!), I'm going to get serious. I have just over 10kg to go and I want them bloody well gone!!!
Sorry for the rant, just feeling a bit out of control at the moment and that's one thing I really hate. I am a bit of a control freak, and the slightest sign that things aren't going how I want them tends to freak me out a bit. But no more!!! I'm getting my act together, and getting the job done!
11 February 2009
Another week, another weigh in
Today is weigh in day. Scales at home this morning showed a decent loss so I'm just hoping that comes to fruition! I haven't done a lot of exercise this week, so maybe that was the shake up my body needed, who knows? The body certainly works in mysterious ways I have discovered over the last year.
My god, the last year! Tomorrow it will be exactly a year since I joined WW. I had hoped to be at goal by now, probably a little ambitious now that I think about it I guess! But I'm still extremely happy with losing 36kg in a year. I didn't think when I joined up that I would last a year, and I certainly didn't think I could ever lose that much weight, so anything else is a bonus really!
Went down the coast last weekend - the facial and massage I had were fantastic! Went out with hubby and a mate of his that still lives down there on the Saturday afternoon/night. I decided that I was going to eat whatever I wanted to have - that's the first time I've done that in a year and I must say it felt good to know that I could do that, and simply work harder or eat less points on other days to make up for it. I've always thought I was unable to do that, if I had 1 day when I did that, it would turn into 2 or 3 or 4....but it didn't and I'm really proud of myself for that. Knowing that I could have what I wanted, by the time I'd finished dinner, I didn't even feel like dessert so that's gotta be a positive! I had a fair few drinks, but I knew I could just make it fit. It really was a good lesson for me to learn - that I can trust myself and I won't go crazy like I thought I would.
Well, I shall pop back later, hopefully with good news!
###UPDATE###
I lost 200g at weigh in. Not at all unhappy with that considering I couldn't do the same amount of exercise as I usually would. I am now back down to the lightest weight I have been with WW so I'm stoked about that, and am also back down to only having 10kg to go! I refused to update my ticker when I was gaining weight cause I knew that I wouldn't have more than 10kg to lose for long!
My god, the last year! Tomorrow it will be exactly a year since I joined WW. I had hoped to be at goal by now, probably a little ambitious now that I think about it I guess! But I'm still extremely happy with losing 36kg in a year. I didn't think when I joined up that I would last a year, and I certainly didn't think I could ever lose that much weight, so anything else is a bonus really!
Went down the coast last weekend - the facial and massage I had were fantastic! Went out with hubby and a mate of his that still lives down there on the Saturday afternoon/night. I decided that I was going to eat whatever I wanted to have - that's the first time I've done that in a year and I must say it felt good to know that I could do that, and simply work harder or eat less points on other days to make up for it. I've always thought I was unable to do that, if I had 1 day when I did that, it would turn into 2 or 3 or 4....but it didn't and I'm really proud of myself for that. Knowing that I could have what I wanted, by the time I'd finished dinner, I didn't even feel like dessert so that's gotta be a positive! I had a fair few drinks, but I knew I could just make it fit. It really was a good lesson for me to learn - that I can trust myself and I won't go crazy like I thought I would.
Well, I shall pop back later, hopefully with good news!
###UPDATE###
I lost 200g at weigh in. Not at all unhappy with that considering I couldn't do the same amount of exercise as I usually would. I am now back down to the lightest weight I have been with WW so I'm stoked about that, and am also back down to only having 10kg to go! I refused to update my ticker when I was gaining weight cause I knew that I wouldn't have more than 10kg to lose for long!
04 February 2009
Phew!
Well after a few weeks of small gains, I have finally had a loss. Only 400g, but as that's what I'd put on over the last few weeks, I'm reasonably happy with that. I am still 200g heavier than I was nearly 2 months ago, so my leader and I are fairly confident I have well and truly hit a plateau. Hopefully this loss is a sign that things will get moving again. Fingers well and truly crossed!!!
Had my friends 40th on the weekend - what an awesome day/night! Spent most of the day sailing on Sydney Harbour and then moored in Manly and stayed on board until about 1am and partied away! I'll put some pics up later of all the beautiful fairies!
Away down the coast this weekend to see the in laws. They bought me a voucher for a beauty salon down there so I'm booked in for 9:30 Saturday morning for a full body massage and facial. I can't wait! Was going to go swimming before hand but the pool doesn't open until 9am (bloody small towns!) so I think I'll get up early and go for a jog on the beach instead. I don't want to go swimming after a facial and massage, I don't think I'll be in the mood for much physical activity after being relaxed like that. That night we are probably going out to dinner for my father in law and sister in laws birthdays, but most restaurants in Ulladulla are really good and have a lot of choice, including using a lot of fresh seafood so that will be fine. Besides, given that I let go a little on the weekend and still had a loss, maybe my body is crying out for me to loosen up a bit anyway, who knows?! Either way, it'll be a nice relaxing weekend and for that, I can't wait!
Had my friends 40th on the weekend - what an awesome day/night! Spent most of the day sailing on Sydney Harbour and then moored in Manly and stayed on board until about 1am and partied away! I'll put some pics up later of all the beautiful fairies!
Away down the coast this weekend to see the in laws. They bought me a voucher for a beauty salon down there so I'm booked in for 9:30 Saturday morning for a full body massage and facial. I can't wait! Was going to go swimming before hand but the pool doesn't open until 9am (bloody small towns!) so I think I'll get up early and go for a jog on the beach instead. I don't want to go swimming after a facial and massage, I don't think I'll be in the mood for much physical activity after being relaxed like that. That night we are probably going out to dinner for my father in law and sister in laws birthdays, but most restaurants in Ulladulla are really good and have a lot of choice, including using a lot of fresh seafood so that will be fine. Besides, given that I let go a little on the weekend and still had a loss, maybe my body is crying out for me to loosen up a bit anyway, who knows?! Either way, it'll be a nice relaxing weekend and for that, I can't wait!
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