The long and winding road indeed

2 years. 2 years since I updated here. So much has happened. So many bumps along the way, some good some bad. First the good. My nearly 1 year old. Yep, I had another baby. So once again, weight loss took a back seat. And the bad. Being at home with a baby means I boredom eat. A lot. And the whole 'breastfeeding helps you lose weight' thing? Bollocks. Absolute bollocks. So here I am, another year older, and still not at goal. But that all changes today. And this time it will happen. But why? Why this time?

I am not getting any younger. About to turn 34. And I've been considerably overweight for most of my adult life. That's pretty shit to be perfectly blunt. I'm not having any more babies. So the focus can truly be on losing this weight once and for all and knowing that no more little people will come along and put a dent in my plans! Most of all, I'm just sick of not feeling good about myself. It's a horrible way to live and when you can easily fix the main cause of the problem, to not do so just seems stupid!

I want nice clothes. I want to feel confident. I want to feel sexy. I want to be a good example for my children. I don't want to keep myself from doing things with my boys because I'm not confident in myself. What kind of mother am I if I let that happen? I want to go on the holiday we have planned for November and not just feel good, but know I look good too.

So here's to 2015 and everything it will hold for me. I'm not 100% clear on my precise goals as yet, but I'm working on them. It will be a hard year, I'm returning to work next week. But I will make it a good year. Once and for all.